ordered chaos

chaos is order to be discovered.
or just randomnized order
if there's such a thing.


i need more time! and strength to stay focus and awake!

time

will nothing good ever survive
the passing of time.
Do we have to die a hero
or live long to be deemed evil?
does everything turn sour
if left untouched but only admired.
do memories fade
when not mentioned
what about anguish and anger
do they fade away too?
or do they simmer below the surface
building up for a final eruption.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
its the time of the year again
will you dance with me
'neath the moonlit night
one last dance
before the whispers of goodbye
rustles through the trees
would you
pretty, please?

human vs animal

not sure if i've said this before but

if we deem ourselves as above the animals
why do we constantly make comparison to them?
brave as a lion
agile as a monkey
big as an elephant
and the list goes on...
or even use them as tokens of power and status
a tiger's tooth
bear's skin.

is our so called 'dominance' just a facade
when deep within we fear them
hence these concrete walls and steel scaffolds
keepin them out of sight and hopefully thoughts altogether.

Still, this maybe a tad extreme
we maybe doing this out of respect
and admiration for their physique
and abilities.

If u truly think so,
look deeper within
Do your heart skip a sec faster
when u see just a crow flying towards you
or a dog strolling nearby even if its leashed.

If we really dont think ourselves as beneath them,
why the glory in bull fights?
why label those who fell beasts from lions to elephants as heroes?

respect for them?
yes that we truly have
but borne more out of fear than anything else.

some may truly love animals but they seem them more of equals
even so, a fear always linger
buried deep by their love now.
for Man fear the unknown.
that's a fact that will never change
be it the past, present or future. (now tis an absolute stand but this ain't GP!)

falling sick

i'm fall
fallin' sick.
blocked nose.
sore throat-feels more like inflammation to me.
headache.

and there's econs case study tmr
along with ntu concept tests on sat which i've yet to revise on!
$20 gone just like that.
1 BIG sigh.

JFL
somehow, somewhere someone's missing me........
someone's cursing me..........
cos i keep sneezing! haha

going crazy

there's a quiet sigh
that resounded through the campus
and people were awakened from that year long slumber
some are stretching their backs
other are rubbing their eyes...
but slowly bit by bit
everyone stiffened
and looked at the pile of notes lying in front
realisation followed by fear crossed their face
and with trembling hands they started to flip through the notes
as if under the lead of a conductor
hands flipped in unisons
notes rustled
and the MUGGING starts its melody.

but i've yet to be entranced by its beauty and that is really bad news. =(

enlightment

yeah finally got enlightened!
i know why i dont feel well these past few weeks...
haven been exercising like before...body's so not used to it
feel so lethargic and grossed out la...
i need to run but there's no available timeslot!!
and bball and squash and study and sleep and rest
and just lie down...

a dull's ache there
for something's that lost
from memory and its place. =]

Food for thoughts

when they say its time to wake up from dreams to reality.
it that true?
or just an excuse
to numb yourself from the dreamlike thrills
you felt in the real world out there?


maths test tmr.

SCREWED is when u have not prepared for it and still online
TOTALLY when u have seen people studying for it in school today..

rahh

i need a break! din even get to rest during the JUNES hols
well shall just make do and survive!

sometimes if our parent know fully of the stunts we have pulled (cycling in the dead of the night across half the country on a rented bike, dangerous encounters at bball courts, the falls, bloodied nose, injured wrist, thigh, calf, ankle, bruises to the chest and back, peeling of toe nails)
corny jokes we've shared
mean things we've done. (espmyjcyear)
they would be shocked beyond shock.

it's even funnier that our children (if we will do, thanks to successful baby-making policies)
would repeat such 'feats' again
and the cycle continues
different in contents
essentially same in pattern.

interhouse

interhouse today!
rahh puma has a shortage of J2s for bball and vball!!!

anyways, 1 mth+ of abstinence from bball and training
has decreased my physical fitness by like 50%. shits la.
and even worse my shooting accuracy in a game is 0%! (this is like the dung of the dung!) none of my shots went in!
the 3 months of bballing from in nj during PAE has come to naught.
guess there's no such thing as retaining the skills despite not playing or training.
thankfully the lay-ups are not that bad but i must say it has deproved too =(
SADNESS if we won the last match, we would at least get a medal =P

oh well, here are the excuses. just recovered from my right ankle and calf injury. and my left wrist still feels weird.

alright vball, well i just played one game and technically i only did 1 good receive. and brandon aced like 10+ serves to win that game. and we finished third and second last for vball.
conclusion: there's a medal!

resolution: thou shalt not study everyday but include play too. and i would get my shooting accuracy back.

regrets and choices?

sometimes, when we look back...
are there moments u wish u could have changed?
a lil bit more control
a lil bit more outgoing
a lil bit more understanding.

the steps we take
form impressions
on the wet cement
that hardens as time goes by
it may grow faint
but nevertheless it would still be there.

RIM

the RIM's still far away.
heck, the board's a fingernail away.
net a finger away.
RIM light years away.
Darn. should have trained harder last year.
no time to do that this year.
with all the fats pumping activities like doing tutorials and studying.

want to know the ultimate culprit for fats?
mugging for exams and completing tutorials! =)