I FAILED MY TIMING FOR 4.8KM by 1 sec. this sucks man..the timing is already not that good (21.01) and i have to fail the cut off time by 1 sec..this means less fast food, coke,pepsi and junk food and cakes and titbits, etc. SAD

oh well gonna watch transformers later..hahas hope its nice i'm sure the effect would be ncie anyway! lol...
and Four in the morning is very very nice! by gwen stefani too din expect her to sing this kinda of genre..hahas

rumble bumble bee

woke up early just to go buangkok to play bball! hahas okay la...its quite fun..the feel's coming back but not the fitness. all it took was one month of inactiveness and 3weeks of runless sats and the stamina is like..... -_-" lousy me.
and we have RUN TMR. OH no!!! hahas

on the bright side...exams over! hahas but then Reserve League coming up. means cant play as much bball. SIGHS. But squash's as fun and there's the Purpose aka GOAL AKA VISION we have for squash and we MUST achieve it but there would be "blood, sweat and tears" just like the sjab camp song..okay maybe not much tears.

makes me think of Andss. miss the school compound (not that its very grand or sth) and the juniors and well the teachers..hahas but then din go for the speech day today...cos cos...well u know...haha for those who dont know, its just as well =)

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it took two clicks
one letter
and enter
to start this
to break it all
and make it start all over again
this sucks big time.
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but t'was an illusion and nothing else
for what's noth yours, noth yours.
all you can do is sit there
lying in the middle of nowhere
staring up at the skies
that blink so often
and the rain drops that comes falling down
as the sky cries
and the ground shakes
while the body lay motionless
but the soul within running wild.
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HI PINGKEE! :D

peace

the tranquillity reached.
mind stilled.
feelings smoothened
and running deep.
it is coming.

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thou shalt be focused!
Thou shalt be studious,
better your squash skills
without forgetting your basketball's
and improve on your timing
to the very best.
till the tranquility is breached.

plate

oh man...lost my 1st round...now in the plate event le..must win that +4 guy this thrusday!!!

and i fianlly started on my studeis but haven even complete one chapter...

like what jia hao said..there's really no motivation there.

like given up on studying ever since...
there's really like not much purpose not in the rational way but thinking irrationally.

i'm just lost...and awaiting for sth to happen..or someone to come along...


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Darn! emo again. sth is wrong. but i dont know what.
maybe someone does. but i dont.
and doubt i will ever.
the mind's a swirling mess of thoughts now.
the compass's lost.
and i'm directionless.
so's the soul and heart

HI PINGKEE :D

rant rant rant.

and he goes falling down.
round and round
in the never-ending abyss.
for so long he fell
accompanied only by space
that the sensation was lost
and it seems as if
he's trapped in space and time.
for eternity.
in solitude.

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The clouds gathering
the sky's darker
everyone's leaving
and the sea's roaring
with the boats rocking
but the rain's coming.
and i shall lay there.
out in the sand
with the waves crashing in
waiting for it to arrive.

and when the first drops fall
will the pain be dulled
mind be numbed
feelings be lost
and the soul
free of the bonds of the world
welcoming the rain
in happiness
as it slowly lost itself
and fade away
within the curtain of rain.

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if only this is true...i would long have fade away.

and so the story goes with dreams smashed and hope crushed.
soul burnt and heart wrenched out from the soul

rant rant rant.

tired

its like 1 am now...and i'm feeling sleepy nvm shall just finish this post...haha

went for the econ lecture in which 1% (and it took mighty lots of effort) of it is assimilated by the intellectual aspect of my body.

next went to bball and table tennis...Die. my leg still aches a lil...need to develop more muscles while not impeding on my growth in height (if there's any!).
oh maybe, i'm just getting old. =(

after that met up with nie gang! hahas...went to watch POTC3 for the SECOND TIME! but must say the movie was still as enjoyable cos of the antics by the pirates...haha...after which we roamed around and went to marina square and continued roaming as pool was too ex so was bowling...and most of them are broke...
well, we must be thrifty, to save up for rainy days!

in abt 7 h time, i woudl have to wake up and go off to practise squash a lil and then in abt 16h time, i would be playing against either a novice or a kid less than 12 years old with at least 3 years of squash experience and still get trashed! SIANED.
must not malu, man...even though that kid will be young but the age gap is abit big! hahas...but then the skills owuld be automatically be better i guess...we shall see then..hahas.

for now, its all in the mind and staying calm and collected is the only way for victory. before the gmae actully starts anyway.

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all is confused
with the mind tired
soul strained
feets aching
lungs burning
and heart falling into a million pieces

The above is the result of #Rad.

sometimes

sometimes its just the way words are phrased
that makes it touching and sound sincere...
its something intangible and formless...
that affect us in its own subtle way
without us giving much thoughts to it
but really affect our actions ultimately
so we have to be mindful of them
lest we be cheated by those proficient of its use

slack

i need to go out and study with nie gang, squash ppl, classmates or friends!!! cant study at home..spent the time watching tv instead and then due to the irresistable good weather...went out ot bball AGAIN! hhas...din study at all lar...so dead and training tmr and then sjab campfire! another day gone! poof! with no mugging! =[ hahas...

oh well...squash tmr! then visit the juniors...

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its fun to lie back and look at the sky...
watching the sparrows fly right by...
kids younger than u jumping around..
their peals of laughter surroudning you...
innocent yet sweet...

sadded and yet happy?!

oh no...my bag strap gave way just like yong yuan predicted!! SIGHs.

and yes cynthai..i wld TRY to improve on my typing skills...haha

PIRATES ROCX....the best man...its really nice and johnny's still as hilarious...a mixture of comedy and serious moments...to produce the greatest moment to sit back, relax and smile!

but there were still some points to ponder upon i guess.

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when once love's too deep and feels its not recipocrated, hatred may results...
sometimes what we do, is for ourselves only that we ignore abt those around us....
and yet we keep silent about our plans thinking its an act of concern for the other...
but when its really the lack of trust for another...that makes us keep silent about it...
sometimes all we need is laughter, wits and courage to pull through...and to always look at the horizon...for hope is never far away...and love somewhere out there...awaiting.

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there's too many stuff going thru my mind...
that i want to blurt it out
but they make no sense
and i've no clue why they are here
is it just a trick of the mind
or work of the sub-conscious me
how i wish all these would sort out
and a clear path be illuminated before me
but would that be the path i wanna take?
and again choices and its opportunity costs to put it economically =)

the days getting longer,
my mind weaker,
soul fading,
eyelids heavier,
i want it all to end,
or just to sit and stare at the setting sun,
getting drenched beneath the blanket of rain,
stay asleep in my cosy bed.

been quite a day....ran 3.2...failed my timing =(
why am i so weak?! need to train up more!!!


oh well...went to chicky's hse wif zy after tt...ended up watching pirates at the end..haha...but i did study half a chapter....well almost half...okay near 1/4 =p

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what's the tears for now...
when u arn't even sure what its for...
if it was worth it...
and from deep within.
but sumtimes...
all it takes is just a lil feeling...
and to go with it...
and not to ponder any further...
while embracing what comes may...
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so hte rambling goes on`

training

well...had my first training after dont know for how long and my skills are already rusty...darn! and i shld go get contacts...the protector makes things blurrer!

anyway...training was okay i guess need to improve on judgement alot...sigh...need to work real hard! anyway had 6.2k run at the end of training..AND COACH CHEATED US!!! he said the girls did 20 push-ups,sit-ups,purpees after every 3 rounds! so we said we shall do that too..in the end...the girls actually only did 1 set every 3 rounds!!!!!

Halfway through the run, i was thinking coach must have bluffed us...the girls cant be able to do all these and clock a timing is 45++ as THE SLOWEST TIMING!!! and i was right!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!!!! wah seh...dead sia...anyway 3 of us clocked a timing 39:07...guess it was quite okay...but we seriously need to improve more...i mean i was dying all the way lah...HAII more trainings i guess....we need to get into SEMI next year at the very least!

anyway, did apply some of what we learnt during AB camp... =] like cheering the people on!! hahas..

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a smile is all that is needed
a word of concern
a passing glance
that is needed to make me move on
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wahaha random again.