彩虹

哪里有彩虹告诉我

能不能把我的愿望还给我

为什么天这么安静

所有的云都跑到我这里



有没有口罩一个给我

释怀说了太多就成真不了

也许时间是一种解药

也是我现在正服下的毒药



看不见你的笑 我怎么睡得着

你的声音这么近我却抱不到

没有地球太阳还是会绕

没有理由我也能自己走



你要离开 我知道很简单

你说依赖 是我们的阻碍

就算放开 但能不能别没收我的爱

当作我最后才明白

sis was playing the karoke version
and it just sort of stuck.
been a long time since i've listened to them chinese songs...

and how adept it is? i dunno.
whole body's aching from just 8 times of handstand and approx 6h of bballing.
but its still not enough!!

friday

wells, it did rained..
i was stunned beyond words
dont know what would be the right words to say.
opportunity never knocks twice i guess.

get to bballed but i still cant get enough of it.
cramp both thighs and calfs
if nto for that would have continued playing!!
sighs, that's the only time when
my mind's focused
on one and only one thing. =)

got to see the juniors and teachers
must say it was heart-warming
but i wont know the next batch of juniors le...
all good things come to an end i guess.
but nothing's absolute!!

sighs but lotsa of teachers have left... =(
that's sad...
haiz

hopefully the future generations of andersonians would be able to do the school proud...
upkeep the good name of the school
in character, competitions and academic results!

weird

weird...
was going thru my picture folders...
realised i have pics of ppl from juniors to peers to seniors...
unglam to glam.
well it does bring back memories.
sadly there's not much of myself.
so am i an introvert or what? =P

how much have we changed over the past few years?
from the fun-loving, not so mature but QUITE innocent kids
to a 'typical' teenager who thinks himself or herself unique
when we are trapped by the social pressure we help to impose on one another

rambling ramble rambled.
please dont dont rain tomorrow...
u can rain the whole of sat for all i care...

friday break

gonna take a break tomorrow
let it all out
been waiting for this day all week...
thanks bros and jenn for the past few days man
the constant brain washing upon the emo aura...
hopefully it wun be as hurtful after tmrw..
bball all the way
pool, badminton,
if the sky allow
and my wallet of cos.
not that i'm broke la.

to go back or not
till now there's still the guilt upon returning sch.
the feelings i've let it down
sighs. guess it wld be a downer i'm gonna be stuck with for a time.
when complacency strikes
it catches you off guard..completely

its a deal ze ming...oh man i so need legs training after A's

it hurts

it hurts to speak to you like that
but that's the only way
to make u feel better for
what you think u have done
then would ur guilt be washed-away
but alas u would never know
cos never would it occur to you that way. =)

and i think i'm seriously dumb for doing that.
guess i'm really weird.

idiot

ping kee you're such an idiot.
for how many more lessons do you need
to know that all these arn't fated for you
why oh why did u pull down the fences u painstakingly put up
& let thyself be hurt again. (making ur friends worry)
a good friend and confidant u maybe
but never more than that
for you are nv good enough to be.
no matter what friends would say
your fate will prevail
again and again
so learn well from tis
and never fall again
let this be the last lesson
for it wld only be worse the next time round
heed this advice
and lead a hermit's life
for the forest's calling
animals waiting
and earthworms wriggling beneath the soil
aye dont worry my dear dear friends
for my time is near.
with a broken heart
and a tired soul
i would return
to mother nature embrace
where all that have been would be so.
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and the pain's back
only much much worse
with prelims so near
and bball nowhere
running's a no no
for i wld just run into one of them metal things
and hit the headlines
with a bloody splash

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hopefully i would feel better...
but i think not.
ohwells a hermit's life it would be.
i knew i was suited for it when i told jenn abt it last time.
and i wasn't crazy!
i have this to prove now! =D

random rhymes:
he shoots
he scores
but misses the point

he ran he cried
and was back at that point

as much as it hurts

as much as it hurts me so
u arn't mine to stay with
for there's always him.
damn, it does hurt so much

why do we always make promises we cant keep
and every night we cant sleep? =(

far away

there are times when
when promises are nothing
words become meaningless
actions futile.
that's when u know all had failed
and its time to let go.
or not...

Which is worse?
an analytical mind with a heart that dont listen...
an analytical mind with a heart that dont listen and eyes that refuse to see...
an analytical mind with a heart that dont listen and eyes that refuse to see and a stubborn will that refuse to be moved...

its time to let go...
to where her heart truly belongs
where it will feel love it has felt before
and let all that has happened be nothing more than a sweet sweet dream
for familiarity's where the heart feels most comfortable in

like it matters...wont occur to you to view this anyway =)
oh and thanks for friends like jenn joel and shao ming...
or things would have been much much more worse
to curious ppl...just stop asking alrights.
i need a run. 1 serious long run....
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming
you'll be with me
and you'll never go

Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me go

sinusoidal curve

going up and down
up and down
up and down...
cant it just stay up!?

oh wells congrats S'pore on a silver medal! after 48 years! woohooooooo`
at least there's results now...
one step at a time.
and then stride then maintain.

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its weird how one person can be so pivotal in one's life
and sth a call is all it takes.

exams

time's come to buck up
there's just so much at stake.
the promises and hopes
and aspirations
to be the best of what i can be
but i'm still lazing.
seriously need a slap.
but no!
i wld be disciplined.
work work hard!!!
rahh...too bad i dun have an IQ of 180...
hahas

on another note,
blue.............................................
you would know what i want to say =)

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its been a tiring day... two papers in one day, noth of which u haven't study for -_-

thanks

my squash juniors are so darn ________!
wells, thanks for the pink mouse then.
and no i'm not gonna hang it on my bag.
ain't gay alrights.
but still appreciate the thoughts. haha
wld go abck to train u all if u all need after my A's lol

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blue erasers and highlighters
- fav words of the day. =)
okay time to study hard for the A's!
something to prove this time
something to achieve
and one great motivation.

back to basics

Its Back to Basics now.
to be among my loves
music 'studies' bball squash magic!
another new love maybe coming but that would hav to wait till after A's
and depends if they are going to teach. wahaa!

with constancy and purpose
coupled with determination
we'll make it through
to be born anew ready for a new start
and what may come.

accomplishments

throughout the course of time,
we are continuously trying
to accomplish goals and visions
realising hopes and dreams.
why do we do that?
learning all the various skills
from drawing to singing
dancing to acting
bball to squash
checkers to chess
illusions to magic.
a quest to improve ourselves
to our satisfaction and others?
to give meaning to a life we have yet understand
its purpose of existence?
distracting us from an otherwise seemingly meaningless struggle for survival and dominance?

i guess its just to improve ourselves till the day comes
so we maybe equipped with the skills to survive when we emerge independent from our shelters
to build another one
for ingrained deepest within our genes
is the desire to survive-sometimes even at the cost of others
and that maybe how evolution came about.
one basic genetic character.

but we seek love and companionship
for we too need evidence to prove our very own existence.
An irony, isn't it.
maybe the idea of self
is essentially the reflection of others interactions with us
but we want to determine the type of interaction,
henceforth the concept of appropriate behaviour
based on the assumption (proven or not) that the latter and former has a causal-effect relationship.

and more complications arise
like a recurrence relation
with each R(n) value contains part of the R(n-1) value.
making each complication similar as the previous and yet different at the same time.