I

when you speak
within yourself
how does 'I' look like
am I big or small?
confident or weak?
is it the same I all the time
or do I change now and then?
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there's never equilibrium as we understand it to be
but seemingly equilibrium
whereby events and feelings are in continuous movement
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i'm getting weaker
i can feel it
and i don't like it one bit!
bball deprived! =[
the sky's dark and heavy
and air's thick and choking.
+\/nauseous\/+

in the end

Despite all the complexities
in human interaction
of cheating, teasing and praising.
they are part and parcel of
finding and building upon
our relationships
for a person
who understands and listens
to one's complains
and just be there when needed.

i'm claming up.
and i know it
strangely i'm enjoying it.
i dont wanna history repeated.
yet i dream of the possible days ahead.

LOLLIPOP.

Squash

A recent piece of news came to my ears
and i dont know what to make of it.
squash competition is suspended.

guess, its abt what lit tat mentioned on sat. to think such things will happen...

'All's fair in war'?
'Sports is war minus the bullets'

operation

okays this was basically how he did it (my point of view)

put some eyedrops that number my eye or i think is the blinking or sth...
then use the sharp point of a scissors to sort of dig out those two pimple like thing from the inner eyelid
then it was light compress to stop the bleeding. =]

with luck and care it will recover...

not well

blisters on my hands,
a swollen eye
scrapped (lightly) left knee,
aching calfs.

on the contrary,
they arn't that bad.
but the eye's irritating!

Inspired to aspire
for A's
there arn't any other choices left anyway.

the best moments are usually known after its over.
then regrets set it
followed by blaming
building a home for depression to stay.

rAnTs

5 more days it coming soon. din know its so soon....
bye bye 17 hello 18...
but i dun wanna grow old
neither do i want status quo.

X more days and that would be 3 mths ago.

X+3 more days and all the sweat, blood and injuries sustained would come to naught.
Lesson learnt: Going at 90% is not enough if success is what u want. 110% would be what you need to have at least a 50% probability of success. sacrifices would have to be made. Standards set, Will steeled and Actions to realise it.

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will friendships (n) stand high up throughout its solitude
or will it be eroded by the sands of time?
the latter seems to stand true as n tends to infinity...

but

education and ccas?

there's no choice but to move on
for tis a one way street.
no excuse to fall down
on this well paved road.
others may have cars
to travel down the streets
professional guides to navigate through the crowd
but what we have are legs and everyone else
trying to fight the crowd
and reach our destinations
shadowed by sign boards of bright neon lights.

'you did not lose to him or anyone else, you have only lost to yourself '

???

its useless to have critical thinking skills
if you cant voice your opinions
that were arrived from using those skills.

cos everyone's afraid of the consequences.

instead you would have a very unhappy human
whose resenting your every action.

how do you get a good sol when u downgrade to housebrands?
are there really no product differentiation between.... and .............?

it "remains' to be seen.

random ramblings.