random

when random notes played together forms a surreal melody
would the secret behind randomness be broken.

okay, now what does that mean i wonder,
my mind's really a jumble of random words forming random sentences

now springs the name mandelbrot man,
the answer to randomness.
but its only what the book says
written by a creative mind.
nevertheless, its something quip
and my mind's getting hooked.
time would be spent on it
to find if it ever makes sense (seriously doubt so)
at least til my mind's distracted again
or faced by a walled alley again.

relationship

this struck me yesterday night when....
relationships are animal instincts made complicated.

how pathetic is a guy
when he feels at ease
when playing sports and during physical trainings.

it hurts too much to think about it
that i'm always thinking about it.
where it refers to many things...

thoughts?

nobody wants to take the blame
everyone thinks they arn't wrong
just like, "no single raindrop believes itself to be blamed for the flood"

btw, everyone who still dont know how to play risk...shld really go play it..its fun! ahha

iowa

iowa
that's how i feel.
do you know?
naw, why would you?
its doesn't concern you.

i'm flashing a toothless smile
but you dont get what it means.
i'm just like a butterfree,
freed and yet not free...

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middle english then my lingo, what genre shall it be next.
till you figure it out
but it's already too late.

alrighto

alrights! ran to coach's house today...too bad he went out to eat...if not mao and i wld have free meals or sth...
darn...
HAHA

oh yar, finally went to make contacts...FINALLY after dont know for how many months...LOL
hope my judgement for squash will improve now that i'm not visually handicapped while playing...


anways, bball today, shits i need to improve my shots. but well its pretty fun.
managed to get thru tall guys! 'burn' ppl! and alley hoop! wahahaa...
but then had leg cramps after that...
guess my bod aint that geared up after more than 3 weeks of inactivity...
that's so sad la...

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and it's all part and parcel of life
we have to stand up and walk on
buts its hard i know...
that we have to accept and

bball today

played bball today...
aching legs and bruises...
dinghui's bones are made of metal dude.
seriously...

hope i cut it for tmr's timing....
shucks.

i'm too weak. mind & body.
i hate this.

It's time

The time has cometh...
for the running to start...
peppered with muggings now and then.
lest thou fall into the trap again.,where u saw,
u felt,
u thought,
u ask,
and then
u fall.
then u ask whence hath thy seen it afore.
for this is history repeating.
once again.

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i'm tired
and feeling the strain
it would be easier to giveth up
but that's a coward move.
and many more would be lost
by going down that road.

i'm runn...running away

i'm runn...running away now from what you've done...
and the things you've said...
just like a great escape...
right back into your arms again...
only to be turned away..
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the run yesterday was therapeutic to both mind and body.
wish it could have been at a faster pace though.
to erase everything from the mind..
for the whole 1 hour plus.

there's something that belongs to us
but never meant for us
that thing's called love.
be it parent-child, friends or lovers...
its never meant to be kept locked within the soul
but to given to others
yet the soul cant live without it...
that's really the beauty or tragedy of life.
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time passes only when the mind lets it be so.
memories are the evidence that it is so.

sometimes we live life with too much caution
resulting in much regret
for things would not be so
if a lil more courage we hath then
to bear it all out
and face the results
whatever they may be

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Damn...i forgot the other entry i was about to blog.

but well...PW at jenn's house...its gonna be like a party la... 9 ppl!! hope we dont disturb her sis.. =p

followed by sandcastle building afterwards, which hopefully would be a smooth transit.

water

beneath the surface
lies a rage seething
a senseless anger
at everything else
but essentially at itself
for its failures
and shortcomings
the various wrongs committed
and words that should never have been uttered.

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Promos ended,
the real challenge starts now.
-getting A for PW
-getting back to a better physical level
-learning those stuff i wanted to long ago
-improving both bball and squash skills
-surviving the promos results
and the list goes on

want to get a feel of what infinity is?
list down your wants...

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some lyrics..

So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I've done things that haven't occurred yet
........
......
....
I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for my
sorry for the fact that I'm not awareT
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there
........
......
....
He got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that you had to do it on your own
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your son was once a thief

I'm sorry that I grew up way too fast
I wish I would have listened and not be so bad
I'm sorry that your life turned out this
I'm sorry that the feds came and took me away....

and the story continues..
dont it always?
for the perverted way of life
or just commercialisation.