need or want

i need to train more and toughen up
for squash, studies, bball and....

are u ignoring me now?
did i do the wrong thing again.
guess i would not know,
if history repeats.
i so hope it would not...

gahh, what did i just type?!
sighs, nearly get to burst a new ball today.
vented my frustrations, sadness and anger all on my drives.
too bad grace chia switched it when the ball went to her side.
DARN!

...and something warm fill up my eyes
and the world seems blury.
i hate this confusion.
why cant i feel nothing.
maybe i shld try being a monk after this.
have to eat vegetable only though.
that's horrifying....
in a way.

all's well ends well
all's not that well ends ???
all's bad ends ???

still u wont know
anything.
shld i be sad or happy?
look on the bright side i guess =]
hgis....