sighs

its worse than being sad.
sadder than tears
to be torn apart
from within.

never to let anyone know
especially you.

trying to be happy
when you're "around"
wishing you to be so
no matter what and when.

hoping urs would never be a sad ending
but wishing i'm the one there for the happy ending

the irony.

sometimes i wish we have never met.
or things to turn out as it is.

sighs

Deliberation and Regret.