so what

so it comes to an end. as usual. its always the same. always.
i cant stand it.

the rain drops falling...i'm stuck in a building...
with noone to talk to....i'm all alone...
so alone...
i wanna leave this place...i wanna leave it all...
i wanna live in the mountains...
with the sky as blanket and earth as bed...
with trees as companions...animals as friends...
to spend the last of my days...in their embrace...
till life starts to seep slowly away...
and all that's left is one rotten corpse...

i wanna be invisible to everyone else (but i'm already am)
and just lay there and watch life passes me by...with no feelings.
no nothing...its too hard being able to feel...too much hurt involved...
more than happiness.

i hate this for making feel like this...i knew the ending yet i still went on...
only to prove myself right and leave myself broken again.