this is crap

no matter the results, life moves on.
no matter how you are treated, life goes on.
the world dont revolve around you yet many yous revolve the world.
if everybody were to stop what they were doing would life stop?
if that's true, i would want it to stop when i see u at that moment.
just before u see me. and just stay there. forever.

now, that's a selfish thought...u cant sacrifice the whole world cos of u. cos of what u want.


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and there goes the debate, between the rational and irrational from within.
its terrible. i'm bursting to the seams. why is it always like this? WHY?

is this for real? or issit just an illusion? when will it end? its killing me...

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i just want to lie on soft green grass under the starry night and watch the raindrops fall.
its the only way to forget...
the only way to find the scarred peace lost amongst a shredded piece of heart.
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it always hurts to know.
but its better than to not to know.
but the answer would always be the same.
that there's no point knowing.
cos the outcome's already known.

despite this, i would still want to know.
i woudl still want to know.
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if i ever die within this 2 years...i shall donate my heart to that poor friend of yu hui if it fits...haha.. i'm being serious here.