last day

Final day of sch today.
the feeling is just weird. unlike sec sch.
mixture of relief, happiness and a tinge of sadness.

Relieved that we have finaly graduated.
happy that we have survived HALF of JC life.
sad that there's not much sweet memories to keep
well at elast there were friendships forged.
horizon expanded
limits tested

there's seriously a whole spectrum of people out there
whose perceptions may vary a whole universe away from yours (aka alien and weird by your own standards)
but that's that.
its the environment they grew up in.
values they were inculcated
and subsequent choices they made.

there were many words i said that were regretful
childish actions.
but at least I learn the impact they have on people
and on myself.
learn to filter out information that wont meant for you.
just accept the criticisms and bias words.
change for the better if they are true
be nonchalent if they are not.

I learn also that if you really wanna have a strong class spirit..
you have to reach out to those who are more individualised.
you have to take the extra step to achieve what you seek.
and not depend on the class leaders
for even they have their limits and problems to deal with.
always strive to be more
more than what you are.
but also the other leaders must have similar motivation
and not just be concerned only when within their job scope.

haiz what can i say...
we all did wrong in our ways
at least let's not repeat it again...

now for squash.
should have push the other members harder and not just let them be.
we could really achieve more than what we did.
just had to be more firm with them
Heck the idea that its a sports cca and not a uniform group.
to achieve our goal we have to believe and be disciplined
so when the latter's lacking, it has to be enforced.
advices given are only for consideration and not to be followed entirely.
nvrmind, would put hope into this batch of juniors.
seriously hope they would start training hard now and not play a fool!

at least learn another thing.
when discipline is not enforced strictly (as in UG)
and people are just not motivated themselves.
more proactive actions need to be taken
direct and subtle ones.
shall read up more on that after A's.

anyway, we hav a half successful class outing which become 36% successful later.
Point learnt:
be very detailed in your instructions. tell people to make their whole day free! and it would help if leaders are showing an example and not running off halfway...
or be influenced by their peers.
sometimes i think were the wrong people chosen in year one?
and should we have gone ahead with the idea to change,
when we felt it should be done.
veracity is important.
i guess its too late for me to show this aspect now? hahaa

but also like ms ewe said..people should just voice their opinion when asked
and not complain and disagree when everything is settled afterwards and gonna be carried out.
it only complicates matter.
if u wanna appear peaceful,
then do it not say it.
KEEP YOUR PEACE.

btw, i thought it was common knowledge that sakae buffet starts at 3pm?
and i did rememebr someone saying that it will start at 3 when we agree on it but i guessed everyone just din listen properly? WELL.
think i would get lots of emotions boiling here.
but i need to mention it.
ms ewe asked what we wanted to say to the class.
the only good point i can think of is: we are generally peaceful and don't create much trouble.

anyways, think i know why the topic was brought up to be discussed again but shall not mention why. and no. its not only sis but somethingelse too. haha. like i said, was the right choice made? lol it din seem like a big issue at that time anyways.
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on a good note,
bballed at night today.
though i got scratched again
but it was quite fun. esp when they are taller and.... haha! (die, ego at work here!!!)
esp after the buffet.
i'm not gonna force myself to gorge at sakae next time to make ti mroe worthwhile.
and zhou yang shall not sit inside
lest he spam on the comp again!